so went to the pub with maggie this morning. i met hannah, shes rillllllly pretty.
so lovers day is mon!!! awww i love the reds an pinks an hearts an flowers. its jus an all around good day. like st. patricks day if u dont wear green u get pinched, or halloween theres the whole night thing, or mothers day u gotta do everything fer her. but valentines day is...its love.
i had a fantastic day!
i love the ring on my right pointer finger. it sparkles everytime i write or type. it makes me happy.
ooooh tomorrows fri which means i dont have to do homework cus they cant make me feel bad about it the next day or expect it. ahhhh man sci test. i rilly need to study cus if i dont ill fail then omg! i cant go to the capital!!!! she make the feild trip sound so like high priority. chill woman.
my ear hurts. only like 10 days. theyll make it better. omg please no surgery or hearin aids or stupid stuff to deal with, oh an those tests, i hate the tests. they say sit in this box an push the button when u hear the noise. then they sit u on a white piece of paper an poke around inside ur head, an it takes so long to get there then u sit an wait fer the hotshot doctor who nos nothin because its my head an ive had it fer 15 years an he nos more?
woooooooo bad flashback. drivin to the doc with my dad an mom on a school day totally drained of all energy from all the kidney meds prayin over an over "make it go away, make me better" i must have said that thousands of times in my head that day, an we got to this big white place an they put an id bracelet on me an i remember thinkin im not leavin them, no more tests an sugery or xrays. then they took me in an sat us all done an i thought my god, this skinny man in the lab coat is goin to tell me i have cancer an am goin to die. this is exactly how it happens in the movies. an then he said well its all gone, an everythin left my body i was so happy but then came the but... its all gone but... we want to do more tests an xrays an i jus stopped listenin cus i new what he was goin to say. i stopped listenin to docs a long time ago. im not sure i ever did. like when i was 4 i didnt listen about the leg then at 9 no listein about the ear. then 13 no kidney listenin.
i do remember the barbie card my sister made me when i was 4 an the kiss lisi gave me when she came to visit me, they were so scared an he mom told her to kiss me but she didnt want to cus i was cryin cus i was in pain i guess an then she finally did. then i remember feelin bad for wakin my dad up at 2am to tell him i needed to go to the hospital an when i woke my mom up at 5am cus the pain was so bad i wanted to die.
no hard feelings guys?
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