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Subject:SOME PEOPLE WANT IT ALL
Time:05:29 pm
so went to the pub with maggie this morning. i met hannah, shes rillllllly pretty.

so lovers day is mon!!! awww i love the reds an pinks an hearts an flowers. its jus an all around good day. like st. patricks day if u dont wear green u get pinched, or halloween theres the whole night thing, or mothers day u gotta do everything fer her. but valentines day is...its love.

i had a fantastic day!

i love the ring on my right pointer finger. it sparkles everytime i write or type. it makes me happy.

ooooh tomorrows fri which means i dont have to do homework cus they cant make me feel bad about it the next day or expect it. ahhhh man sci test. i rilly need to study cus if i dont ill fail then omg! i cant go to the capital!!!! she make the feild trip sound so like high priority. chill woman.

my ear hurts. only like 10 days. theyll make it better. omg please no surgery or hearin aids or stupid stuff to deal with, oh an those tests, i hate the tests. they say sit in this box an push the button when u hear the noise. then they sit u on a white piece of paper an poke around inside ur head, an it takes so long to get there then u sit an wait fer the hotshot doctor who nos nothin because its my head an ive had it fer 15 years an he nos more?

woooooooo bad flashback. drivin to the doc with my dad an mom on a school day totally drained of all energy from all the kidney meds prayin over an over "make it go away, make me better" i must have said that thousands of times in my head that day, an we got to this big white place an they put an id bracelet on me an i remember thinkin im not leavin them, no more tests an sugery or xrays. then they took me in an sat us all done an i thought my god, this skinny man in the lab coat is goin to tell me i have cancer an am goin to die. this is exactly how it happens in the movies. an then he said well its all gone, an everythin left my body i was so happy but then came the but... its all gone but... we want to do more tests an xrays an i jus stopped listenin cus i new what he was goin to say. i stopped listenin to docs a long time ago. im not sure i ever did. like when i was 4 i didnt listen about the leg then at 9 no listein about the ear. then 13 no kidney listenin.

i do remember the barbie card my sister made me when i was 4 an the kiss lisi gave me when she came to visit me, they were so scared an he mom told her to kiss me but she didnt want to cus i was cryin cus i was in pain i guess an then she finally did. then i remember feelin bad for wakin my dad up at 2am to tell him i needed to go to the hospital an when i woke my mom up at 5am cus the pain was so bad i wanted to die.

no hard feelings guys?
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Subject:BABY BABY BABY WHEN ALL YOUR LOVE IS GONE
Time:05:09 pm
so i was sitting in sci thinkin my god this woman needs botox an then i was like omg what if i look like that? then i was like wow i rilly love getting hugs from other ppls moms. i dont exactly remember what happened today in sci.

i never loved someone way that i loved you
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Subject:WHEN YOURE CRYIN' YOU BRING OUT THE RAIN
Time:10:16 am
everythings going to be fine. i am amazingly happy now. all smiles. funny how one yes can change everything, including your mood! i have to go to my dads an then to the show, im gonna bring my camera so i can take pics too like while hes not or w/e. then i can show all u pals out there who appreciate seein them. i think me an mali are gonna go shoppin sun because we want to pretty much. i went to bed at like 7 last night an woke back up at like what was it 9? 945? well then it took like 5 mins to fall back asleep after that even tho kenny had his lil slumber party an they decided it was funny to stand an watch me sleep then throw things at me an see how long it would take me to jump out of bed an tackle them to the ground, three pillows. but i was so tired last night because i hadnt slept in like 3 days, literally. some girls called for the boys an tryed to pretend like they were guys so i wouldnt no an i was like um who is this? an they were like joe an i was like ok kenny its joe an he said joe??? whos joe? an i was like idk its ur frend. wow hasnt this jus been interesting. time to flower!!
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Time:06:30 pm
im starting to think that im gettin to old to do the splits. i am soo so close, maybe its the pants, yea its the pants. but if i dont get this soon i might never, jus do the splits melissa!!!!
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Subject:I NEED A LITTLE ROOM TO BREATH
Time:10:21 pm
Twenty four oceans
Twenty four skies
Twenty four failures
Twenty four tries
Twenty four finds me
In twenty-fourth place
Twenty four drop outs
At the end of the day
Life is not what I thought it was
Twenty four hours ago
Still I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You







And I'm not who I thought I was twenty four hours ago







Twenty four reasons to admit that I'm wrong












With all my excuses still twenty four strong
See I'm not copping out not copping out not copping out
When You're raising the dead in me
And You're raising these twenty four voices
With twenty four hearts
With all of my symphonies
In twenty four parts
But I wan to be one today
Centered and true
I want to see miracles, see the world change
Wrestled the angel, for more than a name
For more than a feeling
For more than a cause
I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You
And You're raising the dead in me
Twenty four voices
With twenty four hearts
With all of my symphonies
In twenty four parts.
I'm not copping out. Not copping out. Not copping out.
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Subject:"I'M A BROKEN HEARTED BEAUTY QUEEN"
Time:07:07 pm
more tears than i can cry.

i woke up this morning an my house was on fire untill i realized i was imagining things.
i have a xanga now too. joy, pure joy.
so today was um a... blur, i dont remember much.
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Subject:STOP, DROP, SHUT EM DOWN OPEN UP SHOP
Time:04:12 pm
ok so aparently im the only one with no life anymore. no one ever writes anymore unless they decided to get new livejournals or w/e an not tell me cus i decided i like the bloggin crew better anyway an i have a blog too so ha! so anyways my dresses came today, ones green an the other two are blue, ull see them soon enough. ill spend hours takin pics so yea. oh yea by the way close to the worst night of my life last night, still felt the effects this morning. sure i got over it fast enough but still, it was bad an i dont want it to happen again. i might be caitlyns model fer her fashion show tho, she makes the clothes, i wear them an prance around while ppl look at them, not bad, not bad at all.
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Subject:THAT SMILE IS KILLING ME
Time:03:39 pm
I dont know why u care he doesnt even know your there
cuz he dont love your eyes and he dont love your smile
girl you know that i care

the middle of the night,
is he gonna be by your side or will he run and hide?
u dont know cuz things aint clear

and baby when u cry, is he gonna stand by your side,
does the man even know your alive?

does he know what ya feel
are u sure that its real
does he ease your mind
or does he break your stride?
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Subject:ITS HERE WITH U I BELONG
Time:12:48 pm
YOU'RE EVERYTHING I NEVER KNEW I ALWAYS WANTED




there aint no body else but u that makes me feel the way i do
u cant change whats already been dont, u cant unbreak a heart thats been broken


Looks like we made it
Look how far we've come my baby
We mighta took the long way
We knew we'd get there someday

They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together still going strong

You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're the one I want for life
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night

Ain't nothin' better
We beat the odds together
I'm glad we didn't listen
Look at what we would be missin'

I'm so glad we made it
Look how far we've come my baby
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Subject:PROMISE WE WONT FALL APART
Time:03:47 pm
it was a thumb suckin kinda day. when i went to "school" it was actually light out. i have so much reading to do tho. an some writting. an i kept typing an insted of and today. i wanna go to the cabin so sooooo so bad. the wheather is soooo nice. i wanna take a walk. i was gonna yesterday but i worked out instead.
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